I used to swap stories with Robin, a neighbor who stood watch with me at our kids’ bus stop. She told me about her brother-in-law, a man who’d married badly and continued to suffer the consequences. Robin said that before their divorce, Bill dreaded encounters with his wife so much that he approached coming home from work like a diver preparing to enter a shark tank. He would circle the block several times summoning the nerve to pull into his driveway. Then he’d sit in his truck for five minutes before trudging up the walk to enter the front door.
After the divorce, his wife moved away with their daughter but kept in touch via lawsuits. Even though she had a much higher paying job, she periodically got court orders forcing him to increase his child support. He had trouble meeting the mark some months as he worked seasonally in construction. His ex-wife knew this and took pleasure in forcing him toward the brink of ruin.
Robin swore that Bill had done nothing to earn the ex-wife’s unending spite. He had never strayed and had tried to accommodate her demands. Attempts to appease stoked her anger even more.
I knew another man who suffered similarly but stayed with his wife. Scorn became part of his daily life. I got the impression that he thought he deserved nothing better. He grew so accustomed to abuse that he saw his wife’s aggression as an integral part of their relationship. He wouldn’t have known what to do, how to live, if the river of torment had suddenly dried up.
I took the second man’s example as a warning. I had an opportunity to date an attractive woman. We occasionally chit-chatted, and I once gave Sarah a ride to a meeting. She spent our road time complaining bitterly about her state of affairs. I remained cordial and nodded along as she told me her troubles. I realized, as she recounted a long list of resentments, that I would eventually receive a bad mark in her books if I entered a relationship with her. I didn’t. And she soon confirmed my suspicions by scowling whenever our paths crossed. I had failed to meet obligations in a deal I’d never made.
It wasn’t always easy to spot trouble. Sometimes the worst people, regardless of gender, came wrapped in the prettiest packages. I learned to take close looks inside gift-wrapped boxes. If I saw something unexpected or disturbing, I slowly backed away and got ready to run.