Most teenagers wonder, at some point, how they ended up born into their families. They feel like a fateful god shrugged its shoulders and made a random selection. Bob Jr. might have inherited a few traits from mom and dad, and he might resemble a sibling, but everything else feels wrong.
I’m a recovering NDE video addict. The predominant message given by Near Death Experience survivors is that God is a being of infinite love and wisdom. The second recurring message is that we choose the broad outlines of our lives before birth. We come into this world with things to do and lessons to learn. We select hard times and tough circumstances. We pick our relatives. Like masochistic tourists, we plan the most challenging routes.
I have one question when I consider the proposition that I volunteered for everything: what the hell was I thinking? Other questions: did folks living in abject poverty, suffering starvation, and ricocheting from one moment of abject terror to another really choose the courses of their lives? What induced them to pick those travel plans? Were all the cabins on the luxury yachts already taken?
I’ve heard that we need hard times and tragedies to appreciate the best things in our lives. Moments of happiness seem sweeter when contrasted to times of grief and pain. I sometimes tell painting students that compositions need to have patches of dull colors to make the shining passages shine a little brighter.
But don’t we all wish that our lives resembled extended beach vacations?
Near the end of earning my master’s degree, an acutely stressful time, an acquaintance commented that I had grown a lot during the preceding two years. She wished me continued growth postgraduation. I groused, “If that’s what it takes to grow, I’d like to spend the next two years quietly rotting.”
But I’ve recently come across some teachings that assert that radical acceptance reduces suffering. Regardless of our situations, the best we can do is to embrace each moment and live it fully. The Roman Stoics had a slogan: amor fati. Love your fate.
We may never fully understand the reasons for tragedies and heart wrenching struggles in our lives. But bitching about them makes everything worse. Yearning for different circumstances or wishing that we could go back and make different choices wastes time and energy. If we turn and face our experience, then we are freed from struggling against things that can’t be changed. And we truly live our allotted time.
If the only sure gift we have is this life, then why not make use of it to the furthest extent? Questions about a life plan’s worth can be saved for the exit interview.